Saturday, November 13, 2010

Love does not discern...cliques suck!

My voice mail message is:
“You love one person and that love leads you to hundreds.”
I forget where that quote came from, and that is no matter. I identify with it.

How can one say I love so and so and I hate so and so?
This is senseless.
Love does not discern.

I’m not so interested in the one-to-one relationship, often sacrificing it for some higher purpose or calling. This may sound lofty or even saint-like, and I assure you it isn’t. Hahaha! My callings are huge, loud and multi-coloured. Definitely not for the feint of heart. I frighten myself at every turn. There are countless moments where I have asked myself, “Where am I going?”, “What am I doing?”, and of course the simple one, “Why?”

I’m being facetious.
There is nothing simple about anything I think nor do.

Here’s the heart of today’s writing:
Cliques/clans/groups and outsiders/travelers/explorers.

A close friend insisted I take his copy of “Jonathan Livingston Seagull” with me on this part of my journey; back to Hawai’i. From the very first paragraph I came unraveled. Not hard to do, as my emotions are on high. I read each line slowly and deliberately and some of them many times over. Yes, I related to that bird. Jonathan just wanted to go beyond the limits, see what there is to learn and then share it with the flock. This was not a selfish act, however everyone looked at him like he was a weirdo and banished him from the clan. They couldn’t understand why he could not just be normal and fly to eat – their only reason for flying. Jon couldn’t understand how they could all be so complacent and not want to see what was possible. He would learn for them all, and then show them.
Well, what can I say? Jonathan is like all of us so called rebels, a.k.a. heretics, outsiders, etc. Sure we want to belong, and sure we want t share all we’ve learnt, and we are just not accepted because…well, because we are “different”.
I, for one, always have my antennae up for like-minded individuals. If I couldn’t find them in my travels, I would never have a chance to feel normal and safe.
Having made peace with solitude and born with the gift of self-entertainment, I do not want nor desire much. Sitting by water, hiking up to a view point, a slow beach walk, large empty spaces to run, spin, jump and be silly, gymnastic bars at the park…all are equally good for rejuvination. Oh, and a great conversation. I live for those.

Here in the magical land of aloha, there is great opportunity. My mind is just starting to wrap itself around the recurring thought, “I live here!”. It took a while to land….and still. The almost 7 months I spent here this year already was to be temporary and now it’s a whole different world/mind-set. I may need to (re)mention here that I have not had a fixed address in about 15 years (live-aboard, house-sitting, travel, sailing, exploring).

If I can stay put for one year, I will know that I have arrived…so to speak. ☺
May you remember that you get to choose JOY and with that attitude, almost nothing is impossible.

Until the next transmission, love and be lovable. :)

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